Now, and every day
I'm faced with the question
Do you want to keep trying?
So you want to walk that step?
And I know I don't sound convincing
And I try too hard to not hesitate
I must've been falling in distress
Looking somewhere else to escape
Why not taking the risks of living
If my whole existence has been a lie
Why should I be afraid of dying
If that's what I wanted my whole life
Clinging to someone, grabbin 'em shoulders
Excuses are words so tried and spoken
Laughing at details pretending I do care
Making connections hoping I'll change
And I know I've come a long distance
Just to shut and never see the end
No heaven for me, I'm done with excuses
I know all I deserve is some place in hell
Why not taking the risks of living
If my whole existence has been a lie
Why should I be afraid of dying
If that's what I wanted my whole life
Why not taking the risks of dying
If my whole existence has been a lie
Why should I pretend I care living
If that's not what I wanted for my life